It's so liberating to look back at your path and to see, why someting painfull happened. There were so many horrible things which happened to me, which I couldn't figure out why it happened at the time when it happened. Now, It's easy, all pain is gone. And now I know why... 

Why my boyfriend (if I may call him like that) died when I was 16... To motivate me to research what is death and what happened after death... To see that there is no death. This death happened in March 1979. In the beginning of the year 2014 I heared for Grigori Grabovoi and his explaining of ressurection. He sais that for a dead man to come back to life it is so easy like from sick man to recover from cough! There is no death! We are eternal! God created us eternal, just like himself! We were programmed by the dark forces to believe that there is death, that there exist disease, age...Nothing about that! Everyone who died will come back. Everyone can ressurect a deceased person. In some years they will will all come back (which are not in other bodies) and we will have eternal dance together.