He told me about many of the women he had been with and why he hadn’t had sex for such a long time. He told me what happened to him, how he lost his fiancee over night. He told me lots of things about himself and I also told him much about me. We were never bored with each other. I knew it when he will go to work, when he will go on cycling outdoors and why he doesn’t like to talk to his mother. I felt it when he was tired. Always around eleven o’clock in the evening.

Sometimes we quarreled. We didn’t talk for a day. Then he just sent a mail. Or me… We were like kids, who are always together and who quarreled and give each other a hug and slap at the same time. Then, he started to talk about free time, when he will have vacation. He already said once, that he would just sit in a car and come and see me… Well in between us are 1300 km – 12 hours driving.

I wanted every day more to see him “in real life”. He was, in the beginning, eager to see me and told me when he has vacations and asked where I wanted to go.

I was packing my bag in preparing myself to see a man after a long time of being single. I was so looking forward to this, since I was not on vacation for seven years.

But then… more the end of august was approaching, more he didn’t say anything about it. He didn’t want to talk to me on a phone. Why? Our relationship was not stable enough, he said. He wanted to establish special spiritual bond. The more I urge him to see us, the more he didn’t want to.

So… three days ago, I just decided to cut him off from chat. First day I felt really good. Kind of free. I hardly missed him. Second day I went to look at this twitter acount and was searching for his pictires. Then he sent me an email.