Vera is a divorced woman who didn’t have a man for four years. She is already in the age, when her children are in a school, so she can finally have some time for her. She had horrible relationships after her, so horrible, that she was four years ago totally on the floor and needed to start from the beginning. What was good for her, since she didn’t have any other way to go, but up. I will not tell you a lot about her depression, but she tought that her life was over and that she is existing merely because she needs to take care for kids. That’s how she was thinking at the break up of her previous relationship…

In the middle of every former relationship she always thought… that’s it. This is how life is supposed to be. That is everything what I can get. When she was married, she and her husband went into the trails what almost every second married couple with kids experienced…

First in love, then one kid, then the other one, it starts to be hard, hard, hard… and love just went away like it never was there at the first place.

So… Vera was in the middle of her marriages, depressed, sad and in apathy.

As a young girl, she had lots of life in her, but then she just thought, that one Beloved, one Prince who is there for her just doesn’t exist, this is just a fairy tale, a story to tell to young girls, to be happy about life…

But if life is not supposed to be a fairy tale – why live it ?

All of this stuff went through her mind when she was there on the floor mourning the last man who left her. She was sure that there is no man for her any more in this life time and that she is “done” with men. She need long, long to recover from the pain. She was humiliated. She was with feeling that she is worthless. Specially she was not trusting men.

And then one in a year of her mourning over her life she just … survived.

Then over two years of her mourning she didn’t have so strong pannic attacts any more.