I was looking to the IG page and there was this good looking guy in a gym room, showing his perfect body and he got 3000 likes and about 30 commentaries. And from those comments two girls said that he is their future husband. He was smiling a bit and send them smiley back... That was his little orgasm, his little win. Little that they know that he is so lonely... He is deeply wounded. Even if he is the most beautiful man in the world, even if he has everything what lots of people are just dreaming for... But he is needy, lonely and looking in the comments for a possible love partner. Of course he can get any girl he wants. And he had his orgasms, and they had theirs. But... what is this? This is supposed to be life? That is why we came here?  Why is he feeling so unhappy all the time? So empty... Even if he has all this cars and beautiful body and he is working so hard in this gym... for what? That he will put a picture on IG and that hundred girls will applaud him? 

People interchange sex for love. People are living their toxic lives and they are thinking that materialistic world will be a substitute for their luck. What is luck? Luck is when you do what you like and when people who you love are ok and you have an unlimited communication to them. That's luck. And if you don't have a partner that you want, you need first to get in alignement with your Soul. Your Soul will guide you!

Oh... Am I getting bored like an old teacher? A preacher? I am sorry if I am so direct and if wrote someting that insults you. That's just me. Actually I am so happy, I found my old texts. In english. So, I need to put them into order and do something out of it. I was thinking today, when I was working in my garden - I was actually going through all these stories years ago. I went through all this hell. There is no one person on this Earth that I don't understand. Cause I saw it all! I experienced it myself. But everything can be healed and restored. So... we just have to go on with our lives. That would be my message to my younger self. We must know how to comfort ourselves. Yes, we did mistakes, but from mistakes we grow.